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Hard to believe, but summer is only a memory. Went to Surfside Beach in August with Mom, Brenda, Shirley and Sandra – we all had a blast! September has been busy, but Sandra and I took a girls’ day last week and kicked around Elkin and Harmony a bit. Next month is the Balloon Fest in Statesville – looking forward to that, too! Just us girls again 🙂

Heading for exercise this evening. Going on the bike instead of jogging this afternoon. Let’s see how far I can get.

We all had a blast this year. Sandra went with us for the first time, and is going back next year. Went dolphin watching and then WENT BACK! Still haven’t downloaded pics from my camera hoping that the dolphin pictures will be good.

Not looking forward to work tomorrow. I am so over work any more. Don’t know what to do……. but I will get up and go to work tomorrow.

I wanna go back to the beach and take more pictures.

I miss you, ya know. Some days more than others. Granny seems to be better today than I’ve seen her in a while. I’m getting things done a little at a time. I think you would be pleased.

Love you

 The story of my life… Imagine Judy Garland singing “Somewhere over the rainbow…”

Now, let’s look for our pot o’ gold. Yup. There’s mine. Right at the end of the rainbow. Not sure if THAT’S the pot I was really looking for. Oh – and, no, I didn’t sift through it to see what treasures were left for me…

In first grade I was convicted and sentenced by a jury of my peers. I wasn’t aware I had committed a crime until after sentence was passed. My jurors met in secret to pass judgement. They refused to hear my side of the story. I was tried. Condemned. Sentenced. Punished. Exiled.

I was devastated. I still remember the utter shock – panic – and how I begged them to hear my side.

Probably why I have always tried so hard to make people like me. Why it is so important to make my side known – not just known but understood. Why it is SO IMPORTANT to know what is going on. Why it is so important to be the “good girl.” And why I NEED to feel included.

Knowing this about myself should make it easier to change my actions and reactions. Doesn’t help in the panic of the initial “attack.” Regardless of the intent, it is always an attack.

When decisions are made around me and about me then dropped in my lap, it is an instant replay of first grade. This happens quite often here, and one coping mechanism is to withdraw until it is “safe” to come back out.

Maybe this is too much sharing, but again it is part of my “need to make my side known.”

foxy

Said goodbye to a dear friend. Foxy was hit by a car Saturday in front of Fox Creek. We will miss her. I cried when I got to work this morning – she always came running to greet me and often would roll on the ground to offer a warm belly to be rubbed. Didn’t matter the weather – she just wanted loved.

And she was.

Catch that mouse, little girl! I miss you.

Nothing has changed.

Not. One. Thing.

Except me. My knowledge of something has changed.

Why should I let it bother me? The more I think about the issue, the calmer I have become. I am going to file the survey Monday and worry about what happens when it happens. Since it is an easement for a ‘street’ that never was built, it probably actually belongs to the county. Especially since no one seems to know who it really does belong to. At least I won’t be paying taxes on it any more. And I have the right to use it.

Nothing changed. I just need to wrap my head around information. My knowledge of a fact that has been in place since before I was born is all that has changed.

April is half gone. Oh, my. I’ve been so busy, I haven’t taken time to write.

Good news… I finally got my bike out today and rode. I was hoping the past 2 months of walking and jogging would help me with biking. It has! I was able to ride 5 miles – including the incline in front of Baywood school. So, next week I will start on my longer bike trips. I need to have the bike checked out before I head too far.

I’ve lost over 30 pounds since February 19. Dr appointment in the morning – I’ll see if anything else has improved. Went to Mom’s today for Easter – Shirley went with me and seemed to have a pretty good time.

I’m tired tonight – heading to bed. Will things ever calm down?

Robbie left this morning. I fixed his breakfast and he was out the door just a few minutes before 8. YES!! He’s off to a new life that will make him more self reliant and self confident. I asked him to text me and let me know he’s getting along on his trip, but I haven’t heard anything. I’m a touch worried and more than a touch lonely.

I’ve tried to stay busy all day – I have walked/jogged almost 8.5 miles today. Played with my mutts. Stopped in at Shirley’s. Called mom. Texted Sandra. Wrote in my blog. Paying bills. Washing dishes. Watch dvd …

Crap. Couldn’t stand it. Called him and told him I was just checking on him. He hasn’t had any trouble… 🙂

I feel a little better. 13 and a half hours later, and he should be almost half way. If Google knows what it’s talking about. Anyway, I feel better – and I called Granny to tell her I talked to him.

Dogs are exhausted. I’m heading to Sandra’s for lunch tomorrow. How are those related? Just random thoughts running out my finger tips.

Well I have been exercising and dieting (hate that word!) for a full week now, and things are going pretty good. I’m averaging walking 4 miles a day, and my clothes are fitting looser. The exercise is getting better. How does exercise get better? I am able to walk further faster and the short jogging stints are getting longer. I was even able to use the truck to pull myself up like getting on a horse. I really can tell a huge difference in just the week I’ve been walking.

Took the pups out this afternoon – went to a couple different boat landings on the river, and they came home exhausted. I’m pretty tuckered out myself. Almost no sleep last night because Robbie has the flu. Didn’t know what it was then, I just worried he would be in trouble at work.

I was hoping I could start riding my bike some over the next couple weeks, but dang!! February just returned with a vengeance. It is supposed to get down to 29 tonight, 32 tomorrow night, and rain almost every day. And I’ve been acting like it is already summer.

Wayne and Sandra came today – Wayne was checking out my tractor to give me a quote on fixing it right. They stayed a couple hours, and it was cool in the breeze even then. He didn’t seem to think it is a lost cause… maybe I can afford to get it fixed “functional.” I wasn’t sure they would make it especially since I told them Robbie is sick. But they came anyway. Hopefully the tractor can be ‘right’ this summer.