I started the day on such a high note. I haven’t had a real dip in my mood in several days. Should have seen this coming. Maybe I saw it and hid.
Today I hoped to hear back about my house. Of course, still nothing. Monday I had it in my head – and my heart – that I would get good news today, and it would be from Bobby. Today is the second anniversary of his passing.
I wanted to come home tonight and tell Bobby what we did at work. I miss having a companion-a forever friend. Someone I don’t feel like I’m bothering when I want to just talk about stuff. Like Paul had us go out and get pictures riding motorcycles around Grayson County. Four of us on bikes and Charles taking the pictures. Really a pretty good afternoon. I want someone to share that with.
Then I came home. Got ready for bed early, and wondered what else to do. Walked around feeling a little lost… feeling lonely. I called Mom and talked. Still felt sad. Called Janice and talked… same thing. Called Irene… was really able to talk to Irene a little more than Mom or Janice. I told her I was missing Bobby – missing discussing my day at work. She asked about my day and just tried to make me feel a little less lonely.
It’s storming right now and Majik is having a fit. She does hate storms, but I don’t know what to do for her. We’ve turned the ceiling fan on for white noise – thought about throwing a blanket over her crate so she can’t see the lightning. Yes, the blanket has been implemented. Maybe the storm will pass quickly.
Going to be a long night.
I miss you, Bobby.